6.16.2010
You confusing boy
So nights like these I don't understand; last night you'd barely speak with me, and now tonight you came over, and then texted me even. Why do you feel the need to bounce back and forth. I wish you'd just chilllllll. :)
6.15.2010
4 W's and Fuck
Who the fuck are you
What's your name, what's your sign
Is that your name in his phone
Is that your text, call and voicemail
What the fuck is this
What colors your shirt, what size are your jeans
Is this your dress on the floor
Is this your sale item from the rack, filling up my space
When the fuck was this
What's your class schedule like, what's your favorite coffee shop
Is this your receipt from being with him
Is this your piece of shit coffee mug in his car
Where the fuck were you
When I started to fall
Where were you when I've worked so hard
For all his attention, all of his care
Who are you to think
That’s its just this easy;
To walk in and walk out
Some of us care
Some of us try
And who the fuck are you
And what the fuck is this
And when the fuck was this
And where the fuck were you when I fell hard, and he walked past me
- kf 2/12/2010
What's your name, what's your sign
Is that your name in his phone
Is that your text, call and voicemail
What the fuck is this
What colors your shirt, what size are your jeans
Is this your dress on the floor
Is this your sale item from the rack, filling up my space
When the fuck was this
What's your class schedule like, what's your favorite coffee shop
Is this your receipt from being with him
Is this your piece of shit coffee mug in his car
Where the fuck were you
When I started to fall
Where were you when I've worked so hard
For all his attention, all of his care
Who are you to think
That’s its just this easy;
To walk in and walk out
Some of us care
Some of us try
And who the fuck are you
And what the fuck is this
And when the fuck was this
And where the fuck were you when I fell hard, and he walked past me
- kf 2/12/2010
No, Oh
You cant force anything
No no no
But I can keep trying
Oh oh oh
I'll admire from a far
And Ill still get jealous every text you get
But you cant force anything
No no no
But I'll keep making moves
Oh oh oh
I'll still call you every morning noon and night
And if you don’t answer, I still might call back
But I can't force anything
No no no
But you'll just keep playing dumb
Oh oh oh
I'll still tell you I need advice
And if you don’t help, I'll still expect you to make me smile
But you can't force anything
No no no
But I'll keep holding it all back
Oh oh oh
Ill still ask you about HER
And knowing you, you'll still not make a move
But we're not forcing anything
No no no
And we're still always together
Oh oh oh
You'll still brush me off, pretend you don’t see
That everything I say, I say to impress thee
But you're not forcing anything
No no no
And you're still not speaking up
Oh oh oh
I'll still fall head over heels for you
Every glance you give, every hug I ask for
But I'm trying hard not to force anything
No no no
And I'm still waiting
So so so
- kf 2/12/2010
No no no
But I can keep trying
Oh oh oh
I'll admire from a far
And Ill still get jealous every text you get
But you cant force anything
No no no
But I'll keep making moves
Oh oh oh
I'll still call you every morning noon and night
And if you don’t answer, I still might call back
But I can't force anything
No no no
But you'll just keep playing dumb
Oh oh oh
I'll still tell you I need advice
And if you don’t help, I'll still expect you to make me smile
But you can't force anything
No no no
But I'll keep holding it all back
Oh oh oh
Ill still ask you about HER
And knowing you, you'll still not make a move
But we're not forcing anything
No no no
And we're still always together
Oh oh oh
You'll still brush me off, pretend you don’t see
That everything I say, I say to impress thee
But you're not forcing anything
No no no
And you're still not speaking up
Oh oh oh
I'll still fall head over heels for you
Every glance you give, every hug I ask for
But I'm trying hard not to force anything
No no no
And I'm still waiting
So so so
- kf 2/12/2010
And it goes a little like this...
The name of this blog goes like this;I plan on naming my future daughter (who, by the way, if I get my way will be the only one... Boy;Girl;Boy lol) Ava, and Aladdin is the "perfect" man to me.
I have friends, and family to talk to...but we all know people can only understand so much. I have a lot of emotions and feelings built up, so I write. I'm not an English major, or want to be a journalist; I'm a jock, who loves competition. Loves medicine, and the medical field.
However, I have a soft side. Not a lot of people around me know how artistic I am, and how much I FEEL, and want to EXPRESS. Deep down, I'm a young lady with so many dreams, she could sleep for eternity. She wants to save the world, and be a hero; she wants to marry the boy of her dreams, who may actually be someone close to her; she wants to make a difference, and have the time of her life. She loves to love, and hates to hate. She would rather cheer you up rather than herself on a rainy day...She just wants to be heard, and understood.
But who doesn't now a days?
I hope my posts make you feel something; rather its positive or negative. Appreciation, sorrow, or creative. Enjoy. <3
I have friends, and family to talk to...but we all know people can only understand so much. I have a lot of emotions and feelings built up, so I write. I'm not an English major, or want to be a journalist; I'm a jock, who loves competition. Loves medicine, and the medical field.
However, I have a soft side. Not a lot of people around me know how artistic I am, and how much I FEEL, and want to EXPRESS. Deep down, I'm a young lady with so many dreams, she could sleep for eternity. She wants to save the world, and be a hero; she wants to marry the boy of her dreams, who may actually be someone close to her; she wants to make a difference, and have the time of her life. She loves to love, and hates to hate. She would rather cheer you up rather than herself on a rainy day...She just wants to be heard, and understood.
But who doesn't now a days?
I hope my posts make you feel something; rather its positive or negative. Appreciation, sorrow, or creative. Enjoy. <3
No, Oh
I feel like I have no life
No freedom
No argument
I'm trapped in a place I should admire,
The place I dream about and desire
Day by day it gets harder
More fighting, more rights and wrongs
No matter what song is playing
Only one vocals is used
My opinion doesn’t matter
As my negative pocket becomes fatter, and fatter
I can't leave
I can't have people over
I can't do anything right
I can't even defend myself in a fight
Its all black and white, and I'm a pigment
Sticking to my own judgment, and being punished
A new place needs to be found
That I could, if I wanted, run into the ground
I could have my freedom back
Be independent again
I'll be broke, but baby its fine
If I can come home at 3am, and sleep on the floor
That'll be the pad I adore
Maybe a few friends stay there too
Then we could all party like fools
If only I was responsible.
If only I was financially stable
If only I was allowed to live and learn on my own
Make my mistakes, and start over
No freedom
No argument
I'm trapped in a place I should admire,
The place I dream about and desire
Day by day it gets harder
More fighting, more rights and wrongs
No matter what song is playing
Only one vocals is used
My opinion doesn’t matter
As my negative pocket becomes fatter, and fatter
I can't leave
I can't have people over
I can't do anything right
I can't even defend myself in a fight
Its all black and white, and I'm a pigment
Sticking to my own judgment, and being punished
A new place needs to be found
That I could, if I wanted, run into the ground
I could have my freedom back
Be independent again
I'll be broke, but baby its fine
If I can come home at 3am, and sleep on the floor
That'll be the pad I adore
Maybe a few friends stay there too
Then we could all party like fools
If only I was responsible.
If only I was financially stable
If only I was allowed to live and learn on my own
Make my mistakes, and start over
No Freedom Vacancy
I feel like I have no life
No freedom
No argument
I'm trapped in a place I should admire,
The place I dream about and desire
Day by day it gets harder
More fighting, more rights and wrongs
No matter what song is playing
Only one vocals is used
My opinion doesn’t matter
As my negative pocket becomes fatter, and fatter
I can't leave
I can't have people over
I can't do anything right
I can't even defend myself in a fight
Its all black and white, and I'm a pigment
Sticking to my own judgment, and being punished
A new place needs to be found
That I could, if I wanted, run into the ground
I could have my freedom back
Be independent again
I'll be broke, but baby its fine
If I can come home at 3am, and sleep on the floor
That'll be the pad I adore
Maybe a few friends stay there too
Then we could all party like fools
If only I was responsible.
If only I was financially stable
If only I was allowed to live and learn on my own
Make my mistakes, and start over
- kf 2/12/2010
No freedom
No argument
I'm trapped in a place I should admire,
The place I dream about and desire
Day by day it gets harder
More fighting, more rights and wrongs
No matter what song is playing
Only one vocals is used
My opinion doesn’t matter
As my negative pocket becomes fatter, and fatter
I can't leave
I can't have people over
I can't do anything right
I can't even defend myself in a fight
Its all black and white, and I'm a pigment
Sticking to my own judgment, and being punished
A new place needs to be found
That I could, if I wanted, run into the ground
I could have my freedom back
Be independent again
I'll be broke, but baby its fine
If I can come home at 3am, and sleep on the floor
That'll be the pad I adore
Maybe a few friends stay there too
Then we could all party like fools
If only I was responsible.
If only I was financially stable
If only I was allowed to live and learn on my own
Make my mistakes, and start over
- kf 2/12/2010
Before Everything and After
After every smile cracked
After all the tears dropped
After every single word we spoke in harmony
After all those letters we wrote
After all the meals that we cooked
And after every time I love you mentioned
We still couldn’t save us
But perhaps if you tried after all of this ride
All out experiences could have been saved
Before all the heartbreak
Before all the frowns and before all my dreams
Were flipped upside down
Before you wanted a change
Before you saw me afraid
Before you destroyed who I was
Before everything and after
Everything had already been done.
- kf 2/12/2010
After all the tears dropped
After every single word we spoke in harmony
After all those letters we wrote
After all the meals that we cooked
And after every time I love you mentioned
We still couldn’t save us
But perhaps if you tried after all of this ride
All out experiences could have been saved
Before all the heartbreak
Before all the frowns and before all my dreams
Were flipped upside down
Before you wanted a change
Before you saw me afraid
Before you destroyed who I was
Before everything and after
Everything had already been done.
- kf 2/12/2010
And The Question Still Remains
You and Her
Should have never happened
You dropped your standards
And no one raised their glass
You and her
Should look at yourselves
Your attractive, and she isn't even close
You're so sweet, She's more hot headed than heat
She's a bitch, and a snitch
She plays games and she lies
But you're still around with her
Why haven't you said goodbye?
You and her
Should be over now
Take a look at yourselves
You're being played with
Like you were her Barbie
"take me here, take me there"
"if you loved me, you'd show me that you cared"
You deserve better
That’s all I'll say
If you slip up, and the stick turns blue;
You've finally succeeded
In throwing your life away
- kf 2/12/2010
Should have never happened
You dropped your standards
And no one raised their glass
You and her
Should look at yourselves
Your attractive, and she isn't even close
You're so sweet, She's more hot headed than heat
She's a bitch, and a snitch
She plays games and she lies
But you're still around with her
Why haven't you said goodbye?
You and her
Should be over now
Take a look at yourselves
You're being played with
Like you were her Barbie
"take me here, take me there"
"if you loved me, you'd show me that you cared"
You deserve better
That’s all I'll say
If you slip up, and the stick turns blue;
You've finally succeeded
In throwing your life away
- kf 2/12/2010
The Opposite
Good night text, good morning call
A question and answer
Exchanges of Yes's and No's
Departure arrivals, and pick up times
Checking balances, and ATM withdrawals
Blunts here, and stop for drinks there
Sit on a seat, or lean on the rail
White smile and green eyes
He seems tough, and she's a bit delicate
Drunken actions on sober thoughts
Laugh it off, and lay it on
Go away, but yet stay near
Strong emotions, challenge weak impulses
Parked up front, we'll talk in the back
Their disappointments, and another's respects
It all becomes the other, but falls apart to the same
The good and the bad, happy and the sad
Its all opposites anyways
Even if we'd rather be the same based on the situation
Love, Heartbroken
Single and Attached
Taking a step or falling back
Him and Her
She and He
You and me.
- kf 2/8/2010
A question and answer
Exchanges of Yes's and No's
Departure arrivals, and pick up times
Checking balances, and ATM withdrawals
Blunts here, and stop for drinks there
Sit on a seat, or lean on the rail
White smile and green eyes
He seems tough, and she's a bit delicate
Drunken actions on sober thoughts
Laugh it off, and lay it on
Go away, but yet stay near
Strong emotions, challenge weak impulses
Parked up front, we'll talk in the back
Their disappointments, and another's respects
It all becomes the other, but falls apart to the same
The good and the bad, happy and the sad
Its all opposites anyways
Even if we'd rather be the same based on the situation
Love, Heartbroken
Single and Attached
Taking a step or falling back
Him and Her
She and He
You and me.
- kf 2/8/2010
More.
I want to give you;
More than the mailman could ever deliver
More than an email could ever send
More words than a text message could display
More music than once you press play
More smiles than a dentist
More heart throbs than a People Magazine
More miles than the oldest car you could find
More elegant evenings
More sleepy mornings
More crazy days
More creative ways
More things to activate
More ideas for romantic dates
More excuses to stay up late
More conversations to articulate
More Ink to pen
More pen to paper
More memories to bring up again
More tears that have built up over the years
More pictures for your walls
More kisses for your lips
More holding of my hips
More walks in the park
More sneaking out after dark
More hands to hold
More eyes for you to control
More than any other girl before
More than you could even imagine
More arguments about this;
More hints for you to see
That no one has more for you than me.
- kf 4/27/2010
More than the mailman could ever deliver
More than an email could ever send
More words than a text message could display
More music than once you press play
More smiles than a dentist
More heart throbs than a People Magazine
More miles than the oldest car you could find
More elegant evenings
More sleepy mornings
More crazy days
More creative ways
More things to activate
More ideas for romantic dates
More excuses to stay up late
More conversations to articulate
More Ink to pen
More pen to paper
More memories to bring up again
More tears that have built up over the years
More pictures for your walls
More kisses for your lips
More holding of my hips
More walks in the park
More sneaking out after dark
More hands to hold
More eyes for you to control
More than any other girl before
More than you could even imagine
More arguments about this;
More hints for you to see
That no one has more for you than me.
- kf 4/27/2010
Figure It Out
I'm trying to figure out
If your as easy as an open pocket
Or if I must pick you apart like a locket?
You say so many things
With lesser and lesser details
I can't put my finger on it;
Why you seem to be honest, but I leave feeling
Like nothing was accomplished
How can I stop myself from falling,
If you provide me with not enough railing?
As I walk down the stairs, and I want to believe
That you'll be right there waiting to catch me
If you could open up and explain
Every ounce of your pain,
We'd perhaps finally be on the same page
When I try and think of something to say,
All that comes to my mind is
"Come closer darling"
-kf 2/8/2010
If your as easy as an open pocket
Or if I must pick you apart like a locket?
You say so many things
With lesser and lesser details
I can't put my finger on it;
Why you seem to be honest, but I leave feeling
Like nothing was accomplished
How can I stop myself from falling,
If you provide me with not enough railing?
As I walk down the stairs, and I want to believe
That you'll be right there waiting to catch me
If you could open up and explain
Every ounce of your pain,
We'd perhaps finally be on the same page
When I try and think of something to say,
All that comes to my mind is
"Come closer darling"
-kf 2/8/2010
Explain
Explain to me again
What you mean when you say this,
When you say that
Explain to me again
Because I'm clearly not understanding
Explain to me
What you mean when you say "us"
What you mean when you say "we"
Explain to me again why we weren't together
Because I'm clearly not understanding
Explain to me again
Why you act concerned
Why you want me to find some new so bad
Explain to me again we weren't at that level yet
Because I'm clearly not understanding
-kf 2/8/2010
What you mean when you say this,
When you say that
Explain to me again
Because I'm clearly not understanding
Explain to me
What you mean when you say "us"
What you mean when you say "we"
Explain to me again why we weren't together
Because I'm clearly not understanding
Explain to me again
Why you act concerned
Why you want me to find some new so bad
Explain to me again we weren't at that level yet
Because I'm clearly not understanding
-kf 2/8/2010
Boy Likes Girl
Here
Hold my hand, hold my hand
That'll show you how to be a man
Grip all five fingers tight
You'll always remember this night
Follow Here, Follow There
Soon you'll be ripping my tear
On my jeans, as you pull them down my leg
Soon everything on the floor will blend in their tag
Grab my hips, just like this
Now we kiss
Work those lips, there's better things coming
Now were on my bed, just lying there
Pretty soon well both be bare
Another night, another guy who I care for
Emotions mean nothing
It's simply about my body
You look and you stare…
Was there a thought that I couldn't take you there?
The ultimate pleasure
That sure fire moment
Just your luck, I'm a pretty good fuck
Now
Hand me my shirt, toss me my skirt
I'll write your name down for memory
And I'll just become another tally
-kf 2/6/2010
Hold my hand, hold my hand
That'll show you how to be a man
Grip all five fingers tight
You'll always remember this night
Follow Here, Follow There
Soon you'll be ripping my tear
On my jeans, as you pull them down my leg
Soon everything on the floor will blend in their tag
Grab my hips, just like this
Now we kiss
Work those lips, there's better things coming
Now were on my bed, just lying there
Pretty soon well both be bare
Another night, another guy who I care for
Emotions mean nothing
It's simply about my body
You look and you stare…
Was there a thought that I couldn't take you there?
The ultimate pleasure
That sure fire moment
Just your luck, I'm a pretty good fuck
Now
Hand me my shirt, toss me my skirt
I'll write your name down for memory
And I'll just become another tally
-kf 2/6/2010
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