Two Stars

Two stars
You and I
So far away
But so close
I just want to talk to you
Within the dark sky
All I see is
You and I
No others shining
No others bright
I just see us
Next to the moons light

Parachute - Losing Sleep - She (For Liz) WITH LYRICS

This song is exactly how I feel about someone currently. I love music that captures our emotions. Check out Parachute; they’re good shit. :)

“She, she is the words that I can’t find; How can the only thing that’s killing me, make me feel so alive? And I couldn’t speak; I couldn’t breathe to save my life…”

Once You've Been Picked;

If you can make a girl laugh, you can make her do anything.” - Marilyn Monroe

That’s the glue to all of my “crushes.” (and btw, I feel like I’m 12 saying crush). If a guy can make me laugh, I’ll start to look at you differently; I mean like a good laugh, I seriously laugh. Not a chuckle, I can do that myself. If a guy can identify himself with my humor, and accept me trying to be the clown of any group, then I’ll start to fall for you.

Secondly, I love jaw lines, eyes, and smiles. Those are the three basic physical characteristics I look at.

Jaw lines, if defined, make a boy look like a man. To me, it shows masculinity. No boy has a chiseled jaw line; only men do. And every girl looks for a man. I love deep, big eyes. I have a on going obsession with brown, and green eyes. (I’ve only really liked one guy with blue eyes…and he broke my middle school heart). Last, but not least, the smile. :D I like kissing; I like teeth; I want to be looking at nice teeth, so I have motivation for kissing. If a guy flashes a nice smile about, I take it as if they’re not shy; they’ll open their mouth, and they will speak up. Which is attractive in its own right. That being said…

I fall for guys that have a voice, and use it. You don’t have to be a prick. You don’t have to be obnoxious. You just have to WANT to put your opinion out on the table, and know how to debate behind it. I hate guys that no nothing, and stand up for nothing. I’m to much of a passionate person to stand back and allow that. I would LOVE if we disagreed on things; I don’t want to be your clone. But express things to me if I don’t agree with you. It’s a huge turn on.. ;) and if we do have everything in common, that’s okay too. As long as the guy isn’t holding anything back.

Therefor, I need a guy who wants to protect me. I’m a daddy’s girl, and its a hard label to be applied. But I look up to my dad for always being there for me, and making me feel safe as a young women; I want a boyfriend who’ll do the same. If a guys makes me safe, rather its something they say, or the comfort of their hand touching my solder, I’ll get a little crush :) There is no better feeling in the world for a girl, then to be hugged and held by a guy she likes. Its the ultimate high.

Finally, I want a guy who likes to have fun. Go on random adventure. Go outside. Stay inside. Make up inside jokes, laugh, cry, wrestle, play pranks on each other, go to sporting events (OFTEN!), make fun of peoples facebook pictures with me, cook dinner with me, makeout OFTEN, cuddle more, I love sex and if you don’t then we’ll never work. I want to be with a guy who can keep up with me, and my excess amount of energy. I need that. I’ve never had that, and I ended up becoming a negative, no fun girl to try and match my significant others personality; I will NEVER do that again, its taking to long to be a fun girl again. I want a boyfriend who wants their girlfriend to be their bestfriend. <3 I’m completely possible of it. I want to be the “cool” girlfriend in your friend group, and I’m looking for someone who’ll welcome me into their group. I want you to play Mario Cart with me. Be cool. Be a young man, not a child. Lets party together, and laugh about how we cant remember the night, the next morning. That’s all I really want. You don’t have to be perfect at anything; just atleast try with a smile :)

And here’s the slow, pretty part;

I’m a girl who would rather hold hands with a guy if I really really have feelings for him; I feel like that bond between two people is the hardest one to accomplish…even though its usually the first step for couples, or people seeing each other. I’ve kissed more guys than I have held hands with. If I am willing to allow you to hold my hand, its me giving up my ultimate trust. But once I reach for your five fingers, I’m throwing my “no” answers up, and I’m yours after that… Because knowing me, and my history…

- You’ll make me laugh

- I’ll hold your hand

- And then “You can make her do anything.”

So gentleman, if you think that any of the above applies to you, then I’ve probably noticed it. :)

I Hate Politics...aka Dumbasses

What the fuck Cali?! First prop 8, and now prop 19??? Could you please step your game up? You know, most of the country watches you… Set a better example for the future… Why be so childish, and so uneducated to go out and vote against civil rights issues, and look like complete idiots? I’m not the most educated political follower out there, but I like to know that when I vote, I’m helping OTHERS. Not just my own personal agenda. I hope that two years from now, gay marriage and medical marijuana are legalized, and all those against it can fuck themselves. I want my children to have choice, and live in a diverse world.

Secondly. WHAT THE FUCK MINNESOTA. My home, and my love! WHY THE HELL DID MICHELLE BACHMANN get re-elected!? What the fuck does she do with her job title? Embarrassment. Thats what. Shes an uneducated, rich, obnoxious women, who, if I could, wouldnt hesitate to act upon her presence violently.

AND FINALLY. I swear to whatever GOD there is above, if Tom Emmer wins this re-count over Mark Dayton, Minnesota is doomed. fucking screwed. Way to Go Minnesotans! Way to just “Do It.” Such disappointment from election day…I’m going to just live in a cave.

I love the male sex.

I love males. I love everything about a good guy with two XX chromosomes. I love all the testosterone, and all the manly things guys do. I couldn't be more attracted to the opposite sex. Girls are disgusting...Why trust anything that bleeds for days and doesnt die!? Lets be serious. Penises, and balls arent that cute either, but 'Man Oh Man!' I love me some double X chromosome...And it's been quite awhile for me to get some action...haha

I love that I currently have a crush on like 6 people;
- 2 are "He's fine! I'd do him."
- 1 I'm confused on. I like um', but I don't feel like its worth any of my effort. We'll see, I mean, we're building a good bond.
- 2 I'm completely head over heels for...If only I knew how he felt. "/ Or if he didnt make it so damn one sided, and awkward. Both in this situation confuse the hell out of me, but we'll see if I end up with either? Because they are both just freakin' swell. One is a little ignorant on some issues, but he'd still look pretty...On the other side of my bed ;)
- 1 is completely off limits. fml. because he's a doll. :) but off limits for better reasons..I want to know though SO BAD, if there would even be a chance if the situation was soo much more different. But then, I probably wouldn't think he's such a awesome kid.

BRJMDKIIEAAELCSTVVLKSTIEDIN = Frustration.

halloween pictures. spooky.

First Halloween single; old enough to be on my own; and able to get crunk. (still illegally but whatevs...) From Girl Scout to MISTY!











And finally, the next afternoon, we come to discover that in the battle "Bonfe vs Bus" we have an injury;


Happy Halloween 2010!

One will always find a spot to fit in;

"It's hard, but sometimes it is better to have no friends for a time than to have the wrong friends. The wrong group can lead you down all kinds of paths you really don't want to be on. And retracing your steps can be a long and hard journey." - Sean Covey

Even though we have our differences, these four girls have been the glue to my social life for the last 15+ years. All at times, one at others. We’ve all been together with heartbreak, first loves, family problems, personal problems, and everything in between. We ALL have one complaint about one another, everyone does. Why try and live up to some standard? Before standards werent even mentioned, we were all happy. <3 I love you girls. But lets not participate in GIRL bullshit.


SECONDLY. I love having somewhat new guy friends in my life. I really am lucky to have guys that will sit and listen to me rant, and then even open themselves up to me, so I understand things going on in their life. It makes me feel like I'm actually wanted. As well as makes me feel more and more comfortable with the things that happen to me on a daily basis. I just wanted to make sure that the internet world understands how I feel about all this; if it wasn't for always one young man always stepping up for me, I'd be lost. I need to always have a good guy friend. It makes me feel balanced. :)

I'd rather not have to say any of this;

I dont know what to do at this point; its like no matter WHAT I do or say, I'm still in your head as "A liar. A bitch. A fake friend." Everything title, that I'm confused on why I have. BUT YOU WIN. You've finally broken my emotions down. I try to be the good person, but you have such a negative view of me, no matter what I do, you're gunna tell everyone you have this fake view of me, and treat me the way you do. I dont like to fight and argue. I always voice my opinion on things, rather it pisses someone off or not. Just because when its brought up again, I don't know every single word that was spoken between two people, doesnt mean I'm a liar, or talking shit. This is an on going argument between everyone! Its sooo dumb! Has this not been the problem for years!? Why is it still being brought up, and there is always a common denominator. Just Saying. Plus, its like, Oh can I not speak my mind now, or even when I joke around about something, because you dont find it funny, I'm talking shit? I'm done dude. I've tried to stay out of shit, I've tried to prevent it. And now I'm getting blamed about it. I can't take this unstable emotional fighting bullshit. No one is perfect, and no friend is perfect. Everyone does shit that pisses someone off, but why not understand thats what makes everyone the same? I'm no one, but myself. I'm not gunna be a "Yes" man for everything, I'm going to not do things I dont want to do, and I'll have my own opinions on things. I'M SICK OF BEING JUDGED ON IT. I am no longer going to even begin an argument about "someone talking shit." We're all big kids. Its fucking stupid. Especially when one person has a problem with it, but then brings it up with other people, BESIDES, the one person they're upset with. Thats why this cycle is continuous. I love all of you, but I'm sick of feeling like I can't be myself because I have to meet some standard. It is SO HURTFUL when all you've tried to be is a good friend, and you're constantly looked at as someone who is not. Especially when those views are being judged by only HEARING about a conversation. Not participating in it. I never wanted it to get to the point where I was breaking down, but YOU'RE really making me feel like a worthless person, when I know damn well I am not.